40 Weeks

40 Weeks!!!!!

Can you believe it? I can't really either. It's very strange to go from basically crossing my legs, praying against every contraction, and wishing for just one.more.day to being ready for this boy to come out. Being able to be told that it's okay to do things to encourage his arrival (they don't work). And to know that when he is born he won't (Lord willing) require numerous machines, medications, doctors and nurses just to keep him alive. 

But, what an amazing feeling. An amazingly, wonderful feeling.

Everybody asks if I'm miserable and honestly, I'm not. I'm big and I get uncomfortable, but I really am not miserable. I think what I've realized is that I was truly miserable with the boys. I was stuck in bed and I had gained 10 lbs in 2 weeks. Everything hurt. Not to mention the emotional part of it. I had visitors come and I remember just not really even being able to talk to them because I was so miserable (sorry if you came to visit me!!) Compared to that, this really isn't anything. In a week or so I may change my mind if this boy hasn't made his arrival, but right now, it really isn't that bad. 

That said, I ready to meet this fellow! The bags are packed and ready. Any time now baby :) Thank you all for your continued support, we can't tell you how much it means to us. 

Happy Father's Day!

Happy Father's Day to some wonderful dads!!

I always knew Danny was going to be a good dad, but I have been continually amazed at his strength as a dad and his capacity for loving our boys.

Obviously, the road to parenthood wasn't exactly what either of us expected but he met the challenge with wisdom and strength that I am so thankful for. I never would have made it through these last 2 years without him by my side.

Danny, you are an amazing husband and father. I wish the road could have been different, but you have walked it with amazing strength, wisdom and love. I can't wait for Ezra to get here and get to experience the love of his daddy too!

And of course Happy Father's Day to my other favorite Dad! Love you!! (Checking to see who's taller of course...)

Fess Up Friday

There is a load of laundry that has been sitting in my dryer for probably a week. I can't wear any of the clothes so I figure why bother?

Last night I ate almost an entire pineapple, 3 cups of raspberry leaf tea, bounced on an exercise ball and went for a long walk to try and entice this baby out. It didn't work.

I am so over cooking.

Yesterday I took Cohen to the bakery for a little treat and we were both sitting down eating our snacks and I realized I never paid.

I laugh every time Cohen says "butt" instead of "button"

We still haven't gotten the bassinet put back together or put the carseat in the car.

There are times after Cohen has gone to bed that I will realize I'm still watching Elmo or Nemo.

39 Weeks and Counting

I can't believe I am almost to my due date!!

I am now down to a very select few things that fit. My morning dressing routine consists of picking up one of 2 shirts that fit, looking for food etc that I may have missed the day before and then putting it back on with a pair of yoga pants. Yep, classy.

Cohen has been incredibly clingy and sensitive (and snotty) the last few days, I'm wondering if he is a)teething or b)picking up on my hormones and sensing that his life is about to change in a big way.

Cohen has had more colds in the last 3 months since he's been released from his winter isolation. Yes he's being exposed to new germs and "building immunity" but I'm glad that we could keep him from all the germs when he was younger. I don't regret our decisions at all.

I have a doctor's appointment this afternoon.

Danny and I are both stress eating, big time.

I took the bassinet apart to wash it and now I can't get it back together. I've tried everything!

Cohen and I both desperately  needed a change of pace yesterday so we jumped in the car and went to the mall (one of my least favorite places). He got to run and explore and I got a change of scenery. We also had some birthday money and Cohen got a brand spankin' new pair of jeans for probably the first time ever.

As of 3 seconds ago, Cohen has discovered that he can blow bubbles with his snot. He cried when I wiped it and kept saying "bubble". You're welcome for sharing :)

And that's our lives as of lately. Come on baby boy, we are ready to meet you!!

Two Years Old

Maternity Pictures

With the boys I never got maternity pictures. I wasn't sure it was something I wanted at first, but when we knew the possibility was high that they would be very early, I decided I wanted them. But, we never quite got around to it and now I totally regret it.

So, when my neighbor friend asked if she could take some I agreed. I am not the best subject and generally end up feeling pretty awkward, but I'm glad I did it and she was a good sport to put up with me, especially since she herself was pregnant and went into labor that night! She is pretty awesome and if you want to find her, here is her facebook page! Thanks again, Cat!!

Happy Second Birthday!

We had a pretty good day celebrating the boys' second birthday. We didn't have much planned, which was sort of intentional and kind of not, but worked out well. It happened to be Danny's day off for the week so that was really nice that we could spend time together as a family.

We hung some balloons on Cohen's bed and put some in his doorway for when he woke up and he liked seeing those when he got up. First he opened his presents, an Elmo shirt, a picture dictionary, and some playdough. He got his favorite breakfast of "eggies" and sausage. We put a birthday candle in his sausage and he mistook it for candy and ate part of it while we weren't looking.

The night before we had heard that one of Gramma's goats had her baby, so we went over to see the newest addition. Cohen was more interested in the big goat, but did try to hold the little one.

He had his playgroup that day at his OT so he and Daddy went to that and then it was home for a reading of "boom boom" his new favorite book (Chicka Chicka Boom Boom) and a nap.

After nap, we went to McDonalds for a happy meal since he had some birthday money to spend. He wasn't interested in the toys but did spend some time flirting with a little girl and trying to share his french fries with her.

We stopped by the cemetery to take Carter some balloons and flowers and spend some time there. It always seems so unfair to go to a gravesite to spend time with your little one.

Then it was time for Cohen's favorite part - the park! We spent some time on the swings, and climbing, and best of all throwing rocks in the creek. When we first got to the park, I had happened to look up for some reason and we saw a big rainbow in the sky, which seemed odd since it was sunny out. But, there it was, a big rainbow right around the sun. I'm sure there is some scientific reason it was there, but I think it was Carter saying hi to us. There were also two butterflies flying around the whole time we were there. It was nice to feel like he was there spending some time with us.

{The boys watching the two butterflies flying around}

Once we were all wiped out, we headed home for dinner. Cohen had requested a cheesecake, so I had to make it for him. You only turn two once, right? Well, he only ate the crust but we sure enjoyed it!

It was a pretty good day, with some hard moments of course, but we got to spend some good time as a family celebrating our boys.